It's strange, I have the ENTIRE city of Samokov beckoning for me outside of my apartment, and yet, I don't know where to begin or what to do with myself.

Per usual, my brain is in constant overdrive about how much work there is to do here, and yet, here I sit - constantly thinking about how I don't have the contacts for this, or the language for that, or the guts for ANYTHING.

During training they were constantly warning us about how difficult a transition it would be from being overprotected and over managed, to entirely on your own at site. I think for some reason I thought I was an exception – that's how much I couldn't wait to get here and start working.

And now I'm here, sitting at my computer – busying myself with a project Kevin (the volunteer I replaced) asked me to work on.

My colleagues are so worried about overstressing me, that they aren't really letting me work, so I'm trying to entertain myself, and hoping on Monday I find a way to just put myself out there…